Today it was a normal holiday. Not much different as usual. I was watching The Amazing Race. Teams were flying to Brazil to achieve their goals. They had been working so hard, what they aiming high are the champion of the race, not because of the money but the experience they both gain in the race. So i would like to join this race after i got my money support from my own career maybe after 10 or 20 years later.
I went to Mr Chan's tuition class. we discuss a little bit about the recent Additional Mathematics paper. It was sucks to me. But it was still okay compared to the Chemistry paper. Chemistry was totally crap. The reality is, the exam is passed. So I should look forward, to the SPM. I would never try to break my own future with this official paper so i swear, i would do anything, of course legally, to achieve my own target, to the UCSI university college for Bachelor of Interior Design. Back to Additional Mathematics paper, Mr Chan said it was the easiest paper he set before. He's lying for sure. Or kidding. But then, like Ms Chan, my Chemistry subject and also form teacher said, 'Easy is to judge others' mistake, difficult is to show our own mistake.' Totally make sense. Although it is too straight to the point.
What if i go for art foundation straight after my SPM? Or what if i go for insurance, which is STPM for one and a half year first? Or hopefully i am qualified for Matriculation? Those courses have their own benefits and make myself confused and totally having conflict between those choices. I don't like STPM because via Form 6 i am forced to study those subjects which i think is not very useful for my future life as my ambition is to be a interior designer. Going STPM or A level, i can ensure my future tertiary study, which is to be in local or foreign. But doing Foundation, i can go for my dream earlier than others, this is what i am wishing for. Matriculation? Only for local and government university, and my only choice after matriculation, is USM. Hell, i can't think much for my future. But i can't stop worry about.
I love to do something after a well preparation. This is how i live my life. Thinking for more than twice, worry about those simple things, and keep practising myself to solve any possible problem that will potentially happen. Like Mr Timbaland said, 'This is just the way you are.' You can choose anything anyhow to live your own life but do not regret after making decision.
