Being a leader is totally suck. If you ever involved in the any society then u must have been experienced this sort of feeling before. You find that you are sick in gaining attention for group activities, or find it hard to bring everyone to get back to their work. When you are just a normal member, you said anything without thinking even once with your brain. You think the one who leading is an idiot, and you think you can do thousand times better than him or her. But once you are the leader of the society, no matter it's a large or small community, you find that it's totally different thing. It is not easy to be a leader, especially when you get the highest position. Everyone looking at you, and you are not allowed to make any wrong decision or any mistake, even a tiny one. You feel guilty because of not doing work properly, or imperfectly.
Well i truly hate people who don't know what is respect. Respect is a very very simple thing, but why can't you do it well? Okay, you are the group leader in the class which responsible in collecting books for me, and now it's just a few, not more than 10 exercise book, why can't you just carry them to the 3rd floor? Your hands made up from diamond? Or you think the monitor is your maid? When i speak with you softly, you ignored me; and when i start to do something aggressive, you blame me for not doing the duty. What the f*ck is this? If you think you can do better than me, then you come and talk to me. Otherwise, please keep your mouth shut.
If you really don't know what is the time i hang the book to the office, please ask me or you try to ask me for help gently. I'll help you. Even i walked to the office a million times in a minute before, i'll try my best to lend you my hand. But please, don't try to challenge my patience. You can throw you books into the dustbin, you can ignored it and leave it for ages whenever teachers ask you to pass up the book. But guys and girls, please make sure you do inform me that you are not willing to pass up your rubbish. 'Simon, today i'm going to burn my Physics exercise book.' At least you let me know, so that i'm not going to do something very stupid like marking for anyone who didn't pass up the book. If you didn't pass up the books, please be honest. I try to help you out guys, but what you have asking me to do is totally out of my range. Maybe i'll tolerate with you for once or twice, but if you need my help in future, i'll totally show you my anger. Please be mature, don't act like a child. You're in Form 5, not Standard 5.
Maybe sometimes you don't know where's the limit, i tell you i don't really give you a chance. Okay you said you don't know today supposed to pass up the Mathematics exercise book, fine. You asked me to wait, fine. You asked me to count the quantity, fine. But what the hell you want from me for delaying my time, fill my Mathematics period to help you to settle down the exercise book and doing those stupid stuff which you think is supposed to be my job? You wasted my time, it's okay. But can you pay me with the Inverse Matrix? You can't. I came back late, and i forgot to bring the list you need, sorry teacher, it's my fault. You ask the group leaders to jot the name down, remember, you asked the group leaders, not me. So bosses, please don't put the blame on me when teacher ask for the list.
I remember i did tell you guys about my rules. I asked you guys to cooperate with me. I don't want my class to be like 4sa2. I don't have to mention anything about that class, hopefully you understand what am i trying to tell you. Sometimes when i am too fierce, do control me, only after you have done your work clean and tidy, without any mistake. I was a monitor too last year. Last year did happen the same thing. And i am totally sick of this, yet i am not going to let you to beat me down. Sounds too fierce, but that's me. A real Simon, who are too straight in performing his duty and let his classmate blame him all the time.
