How are you all, my fellow bloggers kaki? That was like 2 years ago, and remember that time was like, 'hey ur blog is updated, very well done!' and i can still barely smell the taste of the rain in front of my lappy back in 2 years ago. it was a rain after swimming, and that was super enjoyable memory stuck in my head. When will this feeling come back again? swimming and blogging, and we take groundnut milkshake together in the heavy rain, together in ur kancil... hey andres you know i missed that so much! pay a lot of visit to a few classmate who used to be bloggers together and found out some of them are actually good in blogging. keep it up and i wish to see you write more in your blog, my dear shiong yirk. even though we know facebook already substitute the time when we used to spend on blogspot today

It was so longggg that i have no time to be here, and i am here today because i have a terrible life since the day i declare quited bloggers life. since the last post, i have a complete different life which i have never been experience or even imagined...

i went to form 6, for 2 years like everybody else and scored a good but could-be-better result. and to people who have been wanting to know how i am and i am here to tell you, I AM NOT FINE! my sch life after spm have been dramatically change, i stayed at sch after sch hours for whole months, repeating over and over for twice or trice, imagine like 3 months i stay at sch from 6am to 6pm. and i scored 3.75... its a better-than-average result, I AM HAPPY FOR THE RESULT because i tried everything i can, and spend every seconds i have, what i achieve is what i deserved but i know i am not a genius, so if i cant score a 4 flat, its OK for me =D cheers

and after 2 years of mechanically-changed-life-to-study-day-and-night life has released me from my nightmare. i get into a job, not a professional but important and life-changing job which is to look after the stall in cny, selling hamper. very very challenging and time consuming job because the job is so damn boringggggggggg, even though my boss is an incredible 'businessman' haha. the job doesn't stay long because the business is only for cny season. the next job is a junior customer service job, aka PROMOTER in bodyglove sunway carnival. well-paid salary and nice staff but unfriendly system i would say.

and in between these timeline, i developed badminton as my hobby.

and discovered myself a lot of potential, such as promoting or you can say 'convincing ppl to buy your product' =D start to develop a new part time career and wish me luck, guys and gals.

from 18 to 20, and today, i just realised i have a lot of problem, mentally as main. pessimistic, lack of passion, dare not to dream, and i have no friendly-friends which i would define - a person or a group of people who are able to listen to your heart and voice whenever you want them to. and we know, as our age is increasing, friends who are really friends are actually decreasing due to our time-flexibility and of course our commitment to share with them. i would say i am the one who cannot give 100% commitment in sharing our life, experience, thoughts. i realise, today, i have no close friends and i know its a lot of pressure growing up in this situation - where family and friends cannot give you any helping hands when you need, and of course, in different perspective, you know you can handle a lot of harsh situation in future. even though you know it will not be an easy experience living like that, at least you know it is not happy.

but time flies and time can cure literally everything. and one day you wake up and you saw me, i might be one of the most successful person on the earth. and lastly dare to dream. i will try to catch a dream, will you join me?