Back to life!
This is me, in University of Science Malaysia, Electrical Engineering first year second sem.
Come to think of it, i never visualize how i will be in university like now, like literally when my grandpa was so damn hoping me to be in uni since i was like... 5 years old?! One thing i remember is when he told me, son, you have to study real hard, this is the only thing u can change your life.

But that's not the dream, after all, it is the guitar. Back in the age of 13, a young boy who want to impress people with guitar, playing Jay Chou's song like every beginner =X and only god knows how i am being disregarded from my friends until i want to quit playing guitar at 14. If i were to give up that moment, i wouldn't be in the litlegras music club right now. And so now it reminds me of Tiger, my USM friend, whom indirectly gave me a big compliment, saying people in USM they are so good, and yet their family are also talented. And if Tiger you happened to be seeing this post i want you to remember you are one of the light leading me to who i am and who i will be in the future. And all it takes is only the sentence you randomly said.

Chinese Community Development Society is the last club i ever wanted to join in my uni life. Hell, i was so into this kind of stuff since i was in scout for all my life. I was doing this with all my blood and sweat, and that's the very reason why i want to try something really fresh, i want to try new stuff. But the funniest thing is, i happened to be so enjoyed in the camp back then, of course before it is dominated by a group of different-style-and-pattern people. No offense guys =X

When it comes to AGM, i was unable to be there. And to people who have faith in me, sorry to let you all down. I hope you all know i was in a hard time. My uncle passed away that time. Now that i study electronics, i consider myself as a 'Digital Guy'. It is all 0 and 1 in my head. I was so mechanical like was being programmed. When my dad called and told me that uncle no longer with us, i was shocked but the reality is that i don't have feelings. During the funeral, i cant hold tears with my eyes. Aunty was singing lullaby to uncle and mumbling to him. I got so emotional but at the same time i realize i have blood flowing through my body. Listening to music with iPad, sitting beside the window of a double decker on the ground deck, i lie my head to the wall staring to the moon. and my cheeks are wet, so with my neck. I don't want to clean up the mess, its been so long i never cry and this is the one and only proof that implying I'm still human with emotions. I miss my uncle.

After Miracle Youth Conference have bombarded my life so hard that change my personalities into who i am today, i am glad to be in AIESEC LC USM. I miss my chinese faci from MYC 2008 T_T and i cant recall her name damn it! Hey Fionna u still remember me? I have you in my facebook contact but we are now strangers to each other. I miss the day me and you having msn and we were telling each other we are not going to have relationships before we are in uni, but you broke your promise. I feel so dumb. But anyway i wish you the best in ur life.

Not going to explain bout AIESEC life. Its just too awesome that i wouldn't jot down with words. Summarized, i have met a lot of hot chicks and also cool guy from a lot of country. And you know what, Leona you looked hot in formal. =P

Hey dear now only i know how much i miss you. You happen to be so close to me and i just let you go. I miss you so much that i cant sleep at this hour. Reading through your blog was so hard and a pain to me seeing how deep you are in the love trap, you were so down that you fail in what you want, but u remain silent seeing your HIM quietly and want the relationship to be secret. Why were you doing the exact thing like me? She were too good to be with the guy i don't really like. She deserves better, at least better than the current one, man. And why are you the same with me? Let me help you dear, i just want to be with you this moment, and i don't care who i am and where i stand in your heart. i want to hug you so much but i couldn't. You are not here. I hug a cold and heartless pillow. I really hope that the one who admire me was you and always will be you.